I don't know what my issue is.

For some odd reason in my life, I get very gung-ho about things and then I find something else to be gung-ho about & forget about the first thing... as what happened when I started planning our party. I need to be well rounded, and I guess I am going to try that. I am being very optomistic in thinking that I would get accepted for Fall 2010's nursing class, so instead of stressing myself about taking my NLN in December, I am going to take a deep breath, study, but not take it just yet. I would fail it and then I would have to take the damn thing all over again and instead of using $70 it would be wasting $140. I have decided instead to take my Doula workshop in December, and start school half time in January and have my pre-req crap done in order to start Nursing 2011. Not a bad idea, plus I can start working to get my Doula Certification & work per diem with that and go to school at the same time. Yay me. So in order to be well prepared for that, I need to finish reading two books, easy peasy. But I NEED to remember to keep reviewing my NLN guide at the same time. I really need to well round myself.

My Doula workshop is $450, but we can afford it in November, after the party. And luckily, I know some pregnant women who are due after that and maybe they would mind me attending their births? I need to attend three in order to get my doula certification.

So here we go with the original plan & the second plan as one big plan, if that makes any sense, haha.

Honored!

It's 1:37 am and I couldn't resist making a blog entry!! My 1960s teacher from Upward Bound 2006 told me she would be one of my references & advocate for whatever I need. She works in the history dept. of UNH! She also said that she doesn't give out random compliments or take them lightly and told me to take it to heart... She wrote "don't worry about your exams... You're one of the brightest students I've ever taught. You can do anything. Remember that." that sooooo made my night. That made up for my missed study time due to Lilly screaming.

Got more studying done tonight. Out of the 119 math questions I did today, I got an 85% of them correct! Yay! I don't know what that translates to for the NLN but I did pretty well! All three subjects tomorrow :]

MCC & LRCC!

OMG theres a little hope! Manchester Community College & Lakes Region Community College do not, I repeat DO NOT have waiting lists!! HOW EXCITING is that!?!?!? Just wanted everyone to know. Manchester would probably be better to travel to.

Now I just need to get a ROCKIN' NLN score :)

One of those days.

Today is one of those days where I'd like to RUN AWAY from everything, to relax and get something product done. Like for example, some math review that I SO DESPRETELY NEED and can't do because my demon toddler is REFUSING to nap and instead is screaming in her crib. I need a break, I'm sorry. I cannot attend to her every second, I absolutely NEED to study this or I am screwed. I HAVE to get into nursing school for next fall, I absolutely HAVE to and in order to do that I have to study my ASS OFF. Does my daughter understand this? Well of course not, she's 16 months old. But christ, I wish she had a mute button or sleep button, I cannot work under these conditions.

How sad is it that a (almost) 20 year old forgot how to multiply & divide fractions or convert fractions into decimals?? ITS VERY SAD and EXCEEDINGLY pathetic. So you see, in trying to better myself for my personal goals and my family's wellbeing, I absolutely NEED to study this stupid math, because I MUST get a 50 or better in that section on my NLN...I absolutely HAVE TO.

On the bright side, I did get a bunch done this morning, more than usual, so I guess all in all it was okay, but I was trying to do something pretty challenging this afternoon and all shes done is scream. I hate that cry, it annoys the shit out of me. So obnoxious.

Waiting Lists & NLN studying

So apparently theres a stupid year waiting list for Great Bay's Nursing program. This fall is already full! Thats just not fair. And next fall is already filling up!! Although the tech in Laconia doesnt do the stupid waiting list crap, so I will apply there, Great Bay and Manchester CC. Fun Fun. Which also means I am going to have to take my NLN earlier to ensure that I have my scores in time. FUNNNN. Not so much. I completed the first English & Math sections yesterday... 83% for the English and 75% for the math...still working on the science. Although they do have a big review section about science, I just need to finish looking it over and such. So yep, I have a ton going on right now! I am still going to school in January and my Papa reassured me that he is so proud of me :) That made me feel good.